Le second family ♥

Before I begin my story, I'm sorry if theres a lot of errors. I AM REALLY SORRY.

2013, new year new life. Life as a sixteen year old girl. FORM FOUR OMG!! No more berlian :( Yes, no more berlian but still rehat with dorang, lepak with dorang after school. Yes, i love them. And i am the only berlian who enters 4 harmoni ( geo + perdagangan + arts) Well, so many people kept asking me and my parents why I entered arts stream instead of science stream. Yes, I admit I want to be in science stream because most of my friends are there but I do realised that I hate science ( physics, Chemistry, Biology ) and accounts plus I don't want to study add maths because I know that subject is so damn susah. Well, as you can see I hate challenging myself in my studies because I hate seeing myself failed in something that I really can't do. Hmmm maybe I am a girl with low confidence. Actually Im starting to love 4 Harmoni. I don't know maybe because the girl who is sitting behind me is a big fan of EXO.

3 days of schooling then I got sick. I decided not to go to school and enjoying myself in my bed. On that exact same day, mak got a text, it says " Tahniah anak tuan diminta hadir untuk sesi temuduga ke Kolej Vokasional ERT Setapak dalam kursus Seni Kulinari. Sila bawa hasil masakan beliau pada hari temuduga " I was happy and excited, knowing that Im gonna be in my dream school. At the same time, I was frustrated. Because IM SICK AND NOW I HAVE TO COOK AND THE INTERVIEW IS TOMORROW!? You gotta be kidding.

And the next day, I skipped school again because of the interview. I baked chocolate chip muffins because that is the only food that I can think of. I woke up and showered and went to my dream school. Oh wait not school but college? Well, people spend 2 years but I am gonna spend 4 years there. 4 YEARS. YES. I don't have to sit for SPM and I don't have to pergi PLKN!? Well, about PLKN i don't know. I hope tak payah pergi ^^ hihi gediknya. The interview was uhhh I don't know. Im actually kinda mad at the cikgus who interviewed me, THEY SAID IM TOO SKINNY AND BECAUSE I SCORED 7A'S FOR PMR. Firstly, I know I'm skinny but pls don't take that as an issue. Dah nak jadi skinny, nak buat macam mana. I eat a lot and tried to eat like fat people always do ( sorry bc menghina kejap je sorry ok sorry ok) but it didn't work. I tried to gain my weight but it failed. I tried to get 40kg but it failed, until now, I AM STILL 38KG. I don't know what to do with my own self. Secondly, yes, because I scored 7A's. Why do you want to judge huh I studied like so hard just to get lots of A's. Yes, lots of people said to me that it is such a waste to go to Vokasional while I can go to SBP or MRSM but I'm sorry I AM NOT INTERESTED IN SCIENCE. Yes, I admit after what they said to me. I just lost hope. I don't even want to think about that school anymore.

And I started to go to school as usual. Well, everyone kept asking me about the interview. Starting from that day, I started to feel like they cared about me. And Athirah didn't come. People said guys from class did something to her secara tak sengaja. They are joking around and suddenly tersepak Athirah's table and entah idk what happened all I know is her pinggang lebam ?? Uhhh that's why I kinda hate my class. The guys are so annoying and not good looking at all and bajet. All I can say is EIW. And the girls, err i don't know. There's Athirah, Nia, Sakina and others but I can't get along with them except for the ones that I mentioned earlier. And Thursday is just ok. Things that I have on my mind on that Thursday is Check for Vokasional results and INFINITE H DEBUTS.

11th January and it's already friday. Went to school as usual and the only thing that was on my mind is Check for Vakasional and Infinite H debuts. I came back from school and cepat-cepat turn on the laptop and checked for the results and................................................YES, THE SCHOOL ACCEPTED ME. It says " Tahiniah! Permohonan anda diterima " I was happy, sad, excited, confused, lost and more. Well, I was happy that my dream school accepted me. Sad because I have to leave everything, from my parents to my friends to oppa to bed to my school and more. I was so lost until I don't have any appetite to eat, I don't talk to anyone especially my parents, I feel like sleeping all day all night, I don't take my bath two times a day, I kept staring at my laptop screen with no feelings, I kept listening to sad songs like Myungsoo's I Temporarily Lived By Your Side, Baek Ji Young's After A Long Time Has Passed and ALi's Hurt. I feel bad because I hurt my parents' feelings. They were so excited to shopping some asrama stuffs and I'm like "Hmmm ok. " and everythime they asked me something, my answer will be "Entah taktau " I know I am a bad daughter. Sorry mak sorry bapak. I am really sorry.

When I told my friends about this, all of them were like " NO IZZATI DON'T GO! " "Janganlah pergi, I nak fangirl dengan siapa " Well, at first I decided not to leave and just stay at usj 13 but then bapak told me that if I want to take SPM then when I entered college I have to take something what like I am going to study when I'm in KV ert Setapak. So, I decided to go to my dream school and leave my current school. Well, it's my dream, I want to be a chef, I want people to taste my food and told me that my food is delicious.

And it's already Monday. 4 days to go. Went to school and Athirah didn't came and do yo know what is the most sad thing ever? Athirah moved to another class. She passed her ICT test and got 4 Gigih. I was alone eventhough there's Nia, Sakina, Dhamirah and Amirah Faqihah. Oh btw, I was about to go to the airport on that day, just to see Infinite's Myungsoo, Sungyeol, Sungjong and Woohyun ( Hoya, Dongwoo and Sunggyu arrived the next day ) with Nia but then tak jadi. Eh sedih betul. Like lagi sikit je lagi chance nak jumpa dorang but hmm, Allah tak mengizinkan. Maybe because nanti I want to wait for Exo oppars lah apa. Exo arrived here 5.30 am ( Tuesday ) *sigh*

TUESDAY, today is the day. The day where my classmates gonna do a farewell party for me. We ordered 13 boxes of dominos pizza! We had fun. And there's few of my friends who cried. Anis, Liana, Azzmine, Ammeera, Airina, Nuha. Huhu i didn't expect at all that they would cry because I didn't cry. I feel nothing and happy. I don't know if I'm happy that friends would spent their time with me or because finally I can eat pizza. Hmm maybe both i guess. We took lots of picture with lots of different pose, smile and location ??? Most of my classmates were sad? Idk biarlah dorang rasa macam mana pun, I will always love them. Oh Amirah gave me this necklace, it was pretty but hmm i don't know when I'm gonna wear it because I'm not that type who always wears accessories. When I pergi jalan-jalan, usually I will wear baju and seluar ( itu satu kewajipan duhh) and tudung, not slendang ala Najwa Latif or sarang tebuan. Hehe and there's leftover pizza hehehehe bawak balik rumah lers ^^

Wednesday. Hmmm. Nothing much. Balik pun sorang-sorang with Akif and Hafeez ( bodyguard since form 3 hahahhahahahahahhahah NO ). Went shopping for asrama with mak at Mydin. Fuyoo Mydin dah ada Famous Amos. And Thursday, stayback for the last time with the guys. Hmm it was fun. And yes, Baby Jayy pun stayback because dia ada football ? Aiman told me he is the captain. CAPTAIN ? OMG SERIOUS SHIT captain football. lol guise I'm dating with school's football captain ( perasannyew ew ). Walked with Abdullah for the last time :( Hmmm it's kinda sad. Hes been walking with me since last year but I've been friends with him since standard 6. I am the one who always bully him masa tuition lol.

And it's Friday! Friday! Friday! Gotta get down on friday ! Everybody's lookin forward to the weekend, weekend. HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA lol no. Friday is my last day in school. And theres meeting cocu. Ahh last cocu meeting :( For sure, I'm gonna miss Laksamana, KRS, Fotografi and Bowling. But I will miss bowling the most. Bowling with Walin, Nuha, Syanim and Marsella uhh. Makan Subway or KFC or McDonalds before bowling practice. Hahahahhahaha don't forget about Mr. Teppayaki, izzati. hahahhahahahah. If Im not going to asrama, probably I will be bowling's ajk form 4 ( cewaah ). Hanging out with my berlian friends, hugged them like thousand times. Masuk 4 Harmoni, the girls were like "IZZATI !!!!! " and they hugged me too :) lol i forgot to tell you that the girl who judged me like crazy is in my class. Well, dia masuk 4 Harmoni on Thursday (ew) thank god I'm leavin that school or else, i have spend 2 years with her omg 4 Harmoni is gonna turn into hell ! And rehat, last rehat :( Ate banana cake since tu je yang sedap ( tapi cake tu tak lembut *sigh* ). After rehat, maths but hey im leaving that school so i slept during maths yay. Maybe because I'm too tired of crying. Yes guise I'm crying because I'm sad. I AM GOING TO LEAVE THAT DAMN SCHOOL. If you don't believe me, I have a few saksi, Nia, Dhamirah and Amirah Faqihah. Oh btw, thank you Dhamirah for the poster :) Dhamirah gave me Infinite's poster. I AM SO HAPPY omg omg omg. Seni pun cikgu tak masuk but then Cikgu Rohani ganti, aishhh. Then, suddenly Hisyam wanted to go the office just to mintak Sijil Berhenti Sekolah -.- Well, hes going to Vokasional too in Seremban i guess. He's taking Sains Pertanian. WOAHHH. And there goes the school bell. The last school bell that I'm gonna hear. Went to kantin just for ' sesi berpelukan ', most of my friends hugged me. Well, some of Topazlians hugged me too eventhough tak rapat. Hmmm I feel loved :) Spent some time with my friends at pondok, waved them and boom! I'm alone. Wait no. Sembang with Farhan for awhile and he left because of Friday Prayer and thank god there's Maza, teman dia kejap while drinking 7-Up + Mountain Dew. It was da bomb! And Maza's mom came. Waved her and boom! I'm alone. Spent my time all alone at school. and balik. Well, it's my last time walking home from school. Hmm what can I do, the only thing that I can say is " Goodbye smk usj 13. Thanks for the memories "

THAT'S HOW I SPENT MY DAYS IN MY SCHOOL BEFORE I LEFT THAT SCHOOL. lol macam love story pulak ???? no? oK. Thank you Smk Usj 13. Thank you and to my friends, I'm sorry if I ada buat salah or sakitkan hati korang ke. You know, I'm not a perfect person and nobody is perfect. So pls forgive me ok? I love you guys. Saranghaeyo. Wish me luck for my new school. So, I'll be hiatus for well, idk sampai bila. Maybe masa cuti sekolah je lah I can update this blog.



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